I said I was over it. I welcomed the change. I have a confession to make.
It’s difficult to accept having something taken away from you that you had no control over. Yes, I miss it, even the running, which I never thought I’d say. I miss the camaraderie, the constant pushing myself to the absolute limit, travelling the world to beautiful places, representing my country. At the same time, I am finding it refreshing to do something completely different: rowing. The knee stops me from doing a lot of things, but I’m a glass half full person. I don’t dwell on those things. I use the outdoors as therapy: exercise is therapy. This beautiful country that I now live in is therapy.
The best type of therapy of all though, is my decision to full time commit to sports coaching. I take great pleasure from helping other people to achieve their dreams. I’m really not sure why I didn’t do this sooner!
So do I miss it? Yes. And no. Had I not been forced to quit, my life would have taken a different path. I wouldn’t have a new set of sports to do, a new set of skills to share, and I wouldn’t have left teaching to pursue my dream of being a full time personal trainer and coach.
The original question – ‘do I miss it?’ On the surface is such a simple question, but with such a very complex answer.
Live life for today and look forwards: make your own dreams.
Breakfast: bowl of bran cereal
Lunch: veg lasagne and relish, biscuit
Dinner: home made chicken curry and rice, Hot cross bun
Exercise: 1 hour swim