That’s exactly how I felt today at the end of my run. I should have turned off the garmin because the stats just depressed me. When I got back in, my husband asked how it went. When I told him my words of wisdom (!) he said ‘you have a head injury. You haven’t trained properly for months. You probably are.’
When I was inking about it later, I realised that I am not starting from scratch after all.
Starting from scratch is running to the end of the street and feeling exhausted, managing a mile in around 15 minutes, with several stops, and needing a sit down before you do the second mile. That’s what starting from scratch is. I know, because in the beginning I DID start from scratch. I am not at the beginning. I managed a 3 mile run, I didn’t die, fall over or need to sit down during that time. Therefore things aren’t as bad as I thought.
Earlier in the week, I felt like I could begin to get back to it. By Thursday I hit exhaustion and realised I was rushing this head injury faster than I should be. So, take two, listen to the body. I took Friday off to recover, and today managed an easy bike and an easy run. Baby steps ensure progress instead of further injury. 🙂
Life isn’t fair, but there isn’t anything we can do about that, other than do the best with what we have got.